Daughter of a Narcissistic Mom
Narcissistic moms create emotional turmoil for their daughters.
Our moms nurture our sense of self through their touch, acceptance, understanding, empathy and guidance. We look up to our moms and use her as a role model for our own lives. We crave her attention and praise. We need her understanding, compassion and time. She protects us from harm, provides shelter and teaches us how to cope when others are cruel. Her ability to let us know that she understands our fear, confusion, joy and excitement, supports our own feelings, adding value to our self-esteem.
Emotionally healthy moms raise emotionally healthy daughters.
Daughters of emotionally strong moms are confident and are usually capable of navigating their way through life. They have a strong sense of self; they know who they are, what they like and what they are willing to tolerate. They have respect others, as well as themselves. Emotionally stable daughters will understand personal boundaries and live within them. Mom has taught them to have their own, unique set of values and build a life around them.
Daughters of narcissistic mom are very different.
These girls lack confidence, have very little self-esteem and are unable to trust their own ability to make decisions. They feel as though every one is judging them, struggle to make friends and appear to be shy in social situations. Anxiety and depression are common with girls raised by narcissistic moms. Because these girls live with uncertainty, they are constantly on the look-out for trouble, desperately trying to avoid it at all costs. This creates a co-dependency that will dictate the rest of their lives, if they are not able to get help.
Signs you were raised by a narcissistic mom
- You frequently second-guess yourself.
- You wonder if you’ll ever be happy.
- You don’t trust your judgement & decisions.
- You find yourself constantly apologizing.
- You don’t invite your friends to your house.
- You struggle to concentrate & focus on your school work.
- You feel like you can’t do anything right.
- You feel that you just aren’t good enough.
- You often cancel plans with friends (if you have any).
- You hide your emotional turmoil from family and friends.
You have learned to read facial expressions and use these as a marker for your own judgement. Constant self-doubt and worry prevent you from fully engaging in conversations. Other people appear to be happy and you know that happiness is only for the lucky ones, and you are not one of them. Your most common phrase is “I’m sorry.” because you know that no matter what you do, you will have disappointed someone. School is a serious struggle for you because you are not comfortable in social situations, your mind wanders (worrying about what you did wrong at home that will cause trouble later), you are not able to direct all of your attention to your school work.
Common behaviours of a narcissistic mom
Lack of boundaries – Mom will expect you to respect her personal space and privacy, but will not respect yours.
Emotionally unavailable – Mom is not a shoulder to cry, vent to or celebrate with. She will criticize your emotions and make your story about her somehow.
Control – You will not be able to make decisions about your future, friends or really anything else. She will attend and control your doctor’s appointments, your school schedule, extra-curricular activities & hobbies. She will establish unachievable expectations and chastise you for not living up to her standards. She will not teach you basic life skills (laundry, cooking, cleaning) because you will never be good enough at it. She may demand that you do these tasks, but without instruction, ultimately setting you up for failure.
Manipulation – Masters of the guilt trip, “I do everything for you and this is what I get in return?” She will twist your words to suit her and believe that she is being victimized by you.
Triangulation – She sill make you believe that others agree with her opinions and disagree with yours. She will complain to family & friends about you, making them believe that you are a horrible child. This leaves you feeling isolated and allows her to continue to control & manipulate you.
Shaming – She will compare you to your siblings, her friend’s children or anyone else to point out that they are so much better than you. You will never measure up to her expectations and she will be more than happy to point that out whenever she gets the chance.
Competes for affection – She will not allow you to have a close bond with your dad because this will be a threat to her marriage. She will make sure dad (partner) is on her side and views you the same way she does.
Self-entitlement – Her emotional needs will always be met before yours. She will claim ownership of your clothes, your room, the food, and everything in the home which will allow her to make ridiculous rules for these items. Because she owns these things, she can decide when you are deserving of them.
Can the Damage be Undone?
Damage is never really undone, however; you can learn from this experience, heal and live a fully functioning, happy life – if you choose to. As with any trauma, time will be your best friend.